am i only dreaming or is this burning an eternal flame?

i don't want to lose this feeling. so goes the words of eternal flame, buti don't know what i want. i'm in this confused part of my life now. need guidance. i have to bear in mind that God will provide. i cannot depend on myself, no way. down in the ebbs. save me from this nothing i've become. it's just so ugly i can't bear to look. the decomposition of the human soul. won't you just help me piece myself back together?